In the midst of all of the packing advice, travel excitement, nerves, and new friendships, i didn’t have much of a chance to process goodbyes. I didn’t make time to prepare myself to say goodbye to my best friends for 9 months. Or to process that I won’t get to hug my family until next may. This week has been filled with goodbyes. My friends are heading off to learn, and grow, and do amazing things in college. And i am now driving home after moving my brother into his first apartment. If i’m being honest, it feels as if i am preparing to be left out of a whole chapter of their lives. And that’s hard. I almost feel guilty for leaving them for so long. But. Everyone needs different things at different times in order to grow. God has called me to the World Race, so I know this is what I need right now to grow into who i’m supposed to be. This is where the Lord wants me. Despite the heartache of missing my home, i trust Him. And i’m so incredibly excited to build new relationships and to get the privilege of loving my sweet team. My friend Abigail reminded me of something we were told at boot camp “When you leave there is going to be a gap. This gap leaves room for God to move and do something amazing in the lives of those you are leaving.” I keep reminding myself of this, not only will i be leaving a gap at home for God to do something amazing, but there will also be a gap in my own heart for God to move. I want to be real with this blog, and you guys. So, yes saying goodbye is so hard, but i’m so excited for new hellos. And new beginnings. And new growth. 

P.S. i wrote this blog about two weeks ago, i am now only a day out from leaving for Georgia!!